only the gods are real

“Does this worry you? I urge you—don’t be afraid. I’m nothing if not fair.” — Death

The world is so complicated, tangled, and overloaded that to see into it with any clarity you must prune and prune.

I want you to help me catch a killer of women.

nyokala:

parrotworm:

apriki:

but okay can we talk about what a piece of shit move this was:

like, wow

you are guilting your brother for making friends who aren’t you

and, more than that, you are guilting him for making friends in purgatory when you PURPOSEFULLY GAVE UP LOOKING FOR HIM WHEN YOU KNEW FULL WELL THAT HE MAY BE IN HELL OR SOME TERRIBLE PLACE BECAUSE YOU WANTED A PEACEFUL LIFE

like if you’re going to be codependent, be fucking codependent, but sam’s expectation that dean should center his whole life around him and then that sam can do whatever the fuck he likes is so gross

#the way the writers display this horribly unhealthy relationship as the epitome of human connection is horrible

fuck this codependent bullshit, sam’s intentions here really don’t make a difference to me either, because how the fuck do you think dean is going to hear it?, and remember how intent isn’t magic?, well yeah, (via amorremanet)

That’s what I am saying — the intent really isn’t the point when you’re dealing with the end trauma. People keep saying, oh you’re misunderstanding the scene, you’re not putting it in context, or you’re not understanding Sam’s pain/intentions.  Let me clear something up — one can understand the scene, understand Sam’s manpain/his jealousy, his intent, and his trauma, and still be upset with the scene and what it stands for in terms of the brother’s dynamic. I have issues with the scene b/c it is such a regression, because it pretty much erases/subsumes Dean’s own trauma/agency and actually retriggers it, and because it just makes no logical sense in terms of Sam’s writing so far this season.

Also, for all the ways it turns Dean’s story arc to shit, on the real. This season the only thing Dean had in terms of story was worrying about Sam, and hugging people and making friends/family. And the part of making friends all gets written off in one single moment when Dean is put in a place to say well, none of that matters, Sam you’re all that matters, etc. etc. And to once again have his own trauma pushed down and go unvoiced, to be made into a villain for wanting things, and to pretty much be defined by Sam and for Sam — to be told once again that anything outside of Sam is not good. This is retraumatizing. This is the same shit Dean’s been fed since he was 4 via emotional abuse from his father, and having this be retriggered via this finale yellow crayon scene is so problematic on so many levels, I can’t even deal with it. I’m upset about all the ways that this scene pretty much reduces Dean’s role to only being about Sam and having to put Sam first.

Also, I’m tired of folks calling the Deanfen who are pissed off at Dean’s storyarc crazy/delusional/misguided. So only Samfen and Casfen are allowed to be pissed off at the storyarc for their favorites? And the folks who want more for Dean should suck it up and deal and accept the crumbs???

/bitter about fandom forever

I am not asking you to understand or forgive my actions, but for the first time in my life I was happy. We thought we could have it all. We were naive. For a while it felt like we could do something. Bring about change. - A Royal Affair (2012)